Me, Myself, and Aih

Got a tattoo… (Taken with instagram)

Sun, 13 May 2012 20:58:38 -0400

Got a tattoo… (Taken with instagram)

My precious one… (Taken with instagram)

Wed, 02 May 2012 05:14:31 -0400

My precious one… (Taken with instagram)

Oh, I love my shoes!

Sun, 18 Mar 2012 22:05:15 -0400

Oh, I love my shoes!

The best students we’ve ever had!!!

Wed, 14 Mar 2012 22:20:02 -0400

The best students we’ve ever had!!!

Feelin’ Fresh!

Wed, 14 Mar 2012 20:57:54 -0400

Feelin’ Fresh!

I guess, this is real…

Wed, 14 Mar 2012 20:52:58 -0400

I guess, this is real…

" Mommy Graphics"

Wed, 14 Mar 2012 01:02:39 -0400

“
Mommy Graphics”

- I am a proud mom of the most beautiful little girl in the world…

" Celebrity Quotes"

Wed, 14 Mar 2012 00:57:04 -0400

“
Celebrity Quotes”

How true!

Wed, 14 Mar 2012 00:49:32 -0400

How true!

" Inspiration Quotes"

Mon, 12 Mar 2012 00:49:47 -0400

“
Inspiration Quotes”

I know I will never stand alone… God will always be with...

Mon, 12 Mar 2012 00:25:18 -0400

I know I will never stand alone… God will always be with me… He never fails to guide me through the dark tunnel until I see the light…

When I smile, it doesn’t mean I am happy. It simply shows...

Sun, 11 Mar 2012 22:48:10 -0400

When I smile, it doesn’t mean I am happy. It simply shows that I am thankful despite the pains and hardships I have…

My dad says I have a wonderful smile that resembles my...

Sun, 11 Mar 2012 22:31:00 -0400

My dad says I have a wonderful smile that resembles my mom’s (which, I think, made him fall in love with her… =P)

Wish this was my hair…

Sun, 11 Mar 2012 22:06:12 -0400

Wish this was my hair…

Wish this was my house…

Sun, 11 Mar 2012 20:57:00 -0400

Wish this was my house…

My cravings…

Wed, 07 Mar 2012 00:16:29 -0500

My cravings…

Bad hair day (continuation)...

Wed, 07 Mar 2012 00:06:43 -0500

Good morning, sunshine! Another mediocre day for me. Nothing so special awaits. I still need to continue my previous post. Let’s get it started! Where am I? Hmmm… Ah! Yeah! The next reason why I’ve had this bad hair days for almost two weeks now. Well.. The fourth reason is our housemaid. Her name is Leslie. My gosh! She keeps me being annoyed and irritated. It’s not that I have bad blood or that I hate her. No! Leslie is a 19-year-old girl from Pangasinan who was referred to us by her mother who happened to be a textmate of a friend of my husband. We have had a lot of housemaids before and Leslie is our 10th housemaids (not to mention those who lasted for only a day) and so far, the one who stayed the longest. But, you know what?! She never fails to give me a lot of stress! This girl is like a ROBOT! A messy robot! When she first came, she was like watching TV while I was doing ALL the housework! As matter of fact, she was laughing out so loud without even thinking that she came to us to work! D***! One more thing, whenever she entered the bathroom, there was this bloody napkin which she used to leave accidentally but that was really YUCKY! Not only that, you could even see her blood on the toilet!!! To add fuel to the fire, whenever she eats, there is this chewing noise she makes. I don’t if she has this Chinese blood to eat as noisy as how Chinese people do. And I hate it much!!! In addition, this robot, I mean, Leslie, needs to be ordered every now and then. I feel like a recorded voice prompt telling her everyday what to do. I even printed a schedule of housework but she doesn’t even mind taking a look at that. Well… I am a NEAT FREAK. I know, but what I’m asking is not too much. If only it’s not difficult to find a new replacement. I guess, I’ll just have to endure this. Aiisshhh…. T_T

The next reason is my hubby. Yes! You’ve heard me right. And I may say that he gives almost half of the stress that I’ve been suffering from recently. Why? Well… He’s a drinker. But, that’s not only the point. Whenever he drinks, there’s something in him that I am scared of. He shouts. He tells me bad things. He complains. There was even one incident that he hurt me physically. The annoying part is… He doesn’t even remember all the things he has done the next day after he got over his hangover. I just don’t know if he really doesn’t remember or he just pretends not to. I don’t care! For that reason, I will do whatever I can do to make him stop drinking. It makes me suffer! And I might end up leaving him (which I don’t want to do for our kid). He promises but he never keeps those promises. He apologizes though he is not really sorry. He says he’ll stop but until now, I am still hoping that he will… =(

Lastly, I’ve been suffering from these bad hair days because of myself. Yeah! I have a lot of plans to accomplish and decisions to make. I have a lot of worries and thoughts. I don’t know what to handle first. It seems like something or someone stops me from moving forward. Before I settle all these confusions, I have to settle my mind first. Above all, I must do what my heart says and follow what makes me happy. (sigh!)

Bad hair days...

Tue, 06 Mar 2012 01:12:00 -0500

Well… I guess… It’s not me having a bad “hair” day literally. Idiomatically, I have had these bad days for almost 2 weeks now. Yes! Two long weeks of bitterness, pains, tears, confusion, irritation… Name it! I guess, I have been the unluckiest woman who has ever existed for having these bad vibes around me! WTF!!! I don’t even know where do these things come from. The saddest part is… I don’t know what to handle first. =(

First, can you imagine a job that instead of giving you a worry-free life, it gives you a lot of stress that you can ever imagine having?! Yeah… I’ve been working as an ESL Trainer for almost 3 years now and yet I haven’t gained anything (except from the 6 kilograms). Well… I guess… I did… I did gain some things which are not THAT important. But, what I’m talking about is the career achievement that ALL employees dream of. You know, salary increase, recognition, benefits and insurance, promotion, etc. But, I just can’t understand myself WHY! Why am I still here? Why do I stand being with this company for long? Why don’t I look for a greener pasture? I DID! But, there’s something in this company which made me keep on coming back here or shall I say, still choosing this company instead of the better ones. It might be the convenience… I mean, this place is so accessible for me. I don’t need to force myself to wake up early since I just live in a nearby town. Another thing is, life in this company is so easy-going. AS IN!!! You just teach! That’s it! No need for paper works! No need to meet deadlines! In other words, NO PRESSURE! But, this is not what I dreamt of. I used to imagine myself driving my own car in a corporate attire, attending business meetings, being called “ma’am” (not as a teacher), going out of towns, and all the things a real “working girl” does. =( But, I know it is never to late to be what I might have been. I just need to do something about it.

Now, let’s move on. Second? Well… It’s my PAMPANGA life. Yes, it is! I was not a local residence here nor I speak the KAPAMPANGAN dialect fluently (though I understand a bit). Honestly, I had never seen myself living in countrysides before I came to live here. It’s not that I don’t like the lifestyle, it’s just that I was born and raised in a city. I have never “at home” since I arrived here. Really! I have never felt being welcomed and loved in this place (drama?!). I must say that I find it so difficult to adjust with the way people here live, speak, act, behave, whatsoever! Actually, I have a lot of BAD experiences here —- worst experiences that I have ever had in my entire life!!! I don’t even have friends here except from my colleagues. Yeah… I don’t have “friends” but how come people now me and judge me as if they know me like the back of their hands?! Sounds amusing, right? But, for me, those are just tip of the iceberg. When can I flee from this place?! =(

Well… I guess… I’ll just have to continue this soon… Bye for now…

Someday, I will be in Prague…

Tue, 06 Mar 2012 00:40:00 -0500

Someday, I will be in Prague…

"The greatest thing you’ll ever learn is just to love and be loved in return."

Tue, 06 Mar 2012 00:36:39 -0500

““The greatest thing you’ll ever learn is just to love and be loved in return.””

- -Moulin Rouge